Thoughts and Spider Webs

My blog Lithium stocks is an Cialis canada interesting animal Ally routing number for me Amoxicillin liquid and it has changed over time.  If you knew me around 10 years ago you might know that I did not like the idea of keeping a journal.  As much as I wanted to write my thoughts down I did not want them in such a permanent form as ink on paper.  That unnerved me because I knew for sure that my thoughts on a particular subject would eventually change and then I wouldn’t like what I wrote down and would want no one else to ever see it.

So when I started this blog it was a big step for me.  Granted, I don’t often post my innermost thoughts here for everyone to read (although it might be interesting), but I do put my opinion out there in a very permanent form and, for anyone who wants to, to read it.  The longer I have put my thoughts here the more I realize what this blog is to me.  It is like a spider web for my thoughts.

Thoughts come flying through my head all the time and occasionally there is one or two worth something.  When I put them here they are then caught in the web of this blog and available to me and to you if I ever want to see them again.  It has actually been quite comforting for me to go back and read what I wrote in a different season of my life.  If I am spiritually down I can read my thoughts from a time of spiritual plenty.  It is wonderful.

So to sum up, this blog is the journal of my thoughts that I think are worthy of being remembered at a later time.  It just so happens that it is in a public place so you have the opportunity to read it as well.

I also had to realize that it cannot matter to me whether anyone takes notice of my musings.  There are certain kinds of blogs that are written for the express purpose of drawing and keeping an audience.  Mine is not one of them.  If I focus on the number of visitors or people who comment then I am missing the point of my own blog.  I know this may sound self-centered but this blog really is for me.  I am flattered if you want to read my thoughts but I shouldn’t be hurt if you really don’t care.  If you do care, great.  If you don’t, great.

I need to quit trying to blog for an audience since the purpose is not to gain an audience.  I am sure I will still post stuff here on occasion for the purpose of showing you, the reader, something I think is interesting but that is not my main goal.

If you are still reading, sorry for all of that.  I just needed to remind myself of why I am sitting here typing.  So, I will continue throwing ideas into the spider web of my blog.  Feel free to read it or not.

Brian