Dying of Thirst

Ps. 42:1-2

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Ps. 63:1

O God, you are my God, I seek you, my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.

Since I have been in church my whole life I am far from ignorant of whom God is.  He is all satisfying.  He is thirst quenching.  Besides him there is nothing that is good and everything that is good flows from him.  I know these things.  I know them well.  But knowing is not enough.

I realized as I read those verses that I know that God is an all satisfying stream but that very rarely do I recognize myself as thirsty.  I very rarely see myself as in a “dry and weary land where there is no water”.   Instead I see myself in a land that has wonders aplenty and that satisfaction is but a debit card swipe away.

A good definition of insanity I have heard is doing the same thing over and over while expecting a different result.  In that respect I am indeed insane. I keep going to the fountains of the world hoping to be satisfied only to find that they are spewing sand.  Maybe flavored sand but sand all the same.  Mmmmmm.  That sand tastes a little different from the last.  But it is still sand.  All the wonders of the world promise to quench my thirst but they all fail in the end.  And yet I keep going back to them.  Insanity.

But since I keep fluttering from one world-fountain to the next I get this feeling like I am satisfied.  Illusion of illusions.  And scary to boot.  So when I come to worship the Lord I recognize his awesome power but I don’t recognize that I am thirsty and that he is the only thing that could possibly eternally satisfy me.

What I need to realize is that I think I am satisfied on sand but I am not.  I am dying of thirst and in need of the living God.  I need his soul-quenching, heart-washing water to flood over me and satisfy me completely.  If a man dying of thirst realized that he was filling his mouth with sand when there was a spring of water welling up next to him would he still go to the sand?  Not if he realized that he was thirsty.

I need to know this: that I am dying of thirst every day and Christ is there every day to satisfy my thirst if I will but go to Him.  Nothing else will quench apart from the pure water that springs forth from God.  I run to him.  I can do nothing else.

Brian

Isaiah 55:1-2

Come, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat!  Come, buy wine and milk without price.  Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy?  Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourself in rich food.